What is it that I miss?

The Sun is shinning in Rotterdam. People look happy and spend more time outside. I learn the perspectives a man has when he has only seen me few days while working. What do my appearance and my attitude project towards him? Why does he think that? Interesting theories and lots of laughter.

The burning questions that were since always anticipated are in my head as present as never before. Where will I go? What will I do? What do I miss and how do I need to bring it to my life? What are the things that I will finally leave behind? And what do I have finally to take forward? I don't miss what I thought I did, but I know something unique has to take that place, that might be empty for long.

On a sunny day on my regular routine I am on my way out of the AI office and I see two bikes stacked against one another. An incredible amount of thoughts gets triggered... only two more months in The Netherlands. Happy? Sad? Excited? Upset? Wondering? Going to the gym? Trying to spend time with people? Sometimes I feel like being alone, but how to waste the time I have left with the people I care for?

I sat with Michelle outside, under the Sun, and sharing the thoughts in our heads for the last few days in which all our time is taken. So much is going on so fast.